Today is good and i am formulating a plan to see dozens of friends, a few of which i will hardly get to see for possibly years to come. I will go to redding next week and see Sheri and Andrew on their way east and as many other friends as is possible with two kids who have separate nap times that amount to 5 hours of my day. P sleeps from 8:30 to 10:30, Sam from 1 to 4, P from 3 to 5 Then everyone is in bed again at 7:30. How my friends will fit in will be a wonder. But heres the best part. My VERY BEST friend is in redding, too. SCOTT SCHULTHEIS!!! Can you believe that we see eachother twice a week plus only twice in the last TWO weeks. Woe is me. Woe is scott really though. I think i work hard? (i do) But all this crazy house renovation is major hard work. Thank you Lord. We are glad for this work and believe that there will be some closer to home from here on out. Gotta go and get sam out to pee now, yay!!

i won't be erasing this one.....i hope!

Renee says that you all love me. I could easily say, no, why do people love me. BUT, i so love all of you that i could'nt make small your love when i know it is something that is great and priceless and valuable and has been dependable for years, even if i have'nt tapped into it for some time. Heres the thing, i am feeling sorry for my anti-social self and i can't drown out my pain in crystal light or diet coke so.....i get it in my head that this is all very hard. Here in sac, wher it was so hot today that sam was most of the time naked and P was in her diaper. Of course i have 50 outfits i'd like to see on her, but it must have been 85 at least. Which will seem like winter when its 111 this june. And that is my big depresser...thinking of this summer. But before you think that i suck i'll tell you that my solution was immediately fathomed and it is this. I will decide to love this heat. I am going to embrace it like it was favorite thing. If only i looked good in a tube top! Dude, i'd be all over one of those! But this stomach will never see the light of day! I'm so serious. Unless i get skinny and Scott said he'd let me get the old tummy tuck! But like i said, this tummy is never going to see....
Well. Did yiu notice that i called her P. Thats who she is half the time in my mind. I tried making it Pea, like anne with an e in the green gables books, but i think its straight P. I love her full name more than any other girl name, don't get me wrong, and she won't be Patia or Pay, although i've considered these. So Sam is saying his name now, but it sounds like San, which is so ok with me, because today is the first time i ever got him to say it, besides maybe 1/2 a year back when he said Wam. Since then he just has'nt. Til i intriduced the ol' m and m. Why did'nt i think of that sooner. And back to San, hes always been Sam Bernadino to me, so why not accuracy. San Bernadino. Oh i love this boy more than words.
And now about my garbage digger! She is such a big girl, walking out of the kitchen with an empty bottle of merlot, a good vintage at that. No, she did'nt drink any, but there is no way to keep her out of the recycling trash compost....
Well, i am rich in kid life and broke in social life. But i know you all are out there, and when i think of who i am missing, so many names come to mind, like litlle popcorn in the microwave that keeps popping even after the dinger goes off. Love.