i won't be erasing this one.....i hope!
Renee says that you all love me. I could easily say, no, why do people love me. BUT, i so love all of you that i could'nt make small your love when i know it is something that is great and priceless and valuable and has been dependable for years, even if i have'nt tapped into it for some time. Heres the thing, i am feeling sorry for my anti-social self and i can't drown out my pain in crystal light or diet coke so.....i get it in my head that this is all very hard. Here in sac, wher it was so hot today that sam was most of the time naked and P was in her diaper. Of course i have 50 outfits i'd like to see on her, but it must have been 85 at least. Which will seem like winter when its 111 this june. And that is my big depresser...thinking of this summer. But before you think that i suck i'll tell you that my solution was immediately fathomed and it is this. I will decide to love this heat. I am going to embrace it like it was favorite thing. If only i looked good in a tube top! Dude, i'd be all over one of those! But this stomach will never see the light of day! I'm so serious. Unless i get skinny and Scott said he'd let me get the old tummy tuck! But like i said, this tummy is never going to see....
Well. Did yiu notice that i called her P. Thats who she is half the time in my mind. I tried making it Pea, like anne with an e in the green gables books, but i think its straight P. I love her full name more than any other girl name, don't get me wrong, and she won't be Patia or Pay, although i've considered these. So Sam is saying his name now, but it sounds like San, which is so ok with me, because today is the first time i ever got him to say it, besides maybe 1/2 a year back when he said Wam. Since then he just has'nt. Til i intriduced the ol' m and m. Why did'nt i think of that sooner. And back to San, hes always been Sam Bernadino to me, so why not accuracy. San Bernadino. Oh i love this boy more than words.
And now about my garbage digger! She is such a big girl, walking out of the kitchen with an empty bottle of merlot, a good vintage at that. No, she did'nt drink any, but there is no way to keep her out of the recycling trash compost....
Well, i am rich in kid life and broke in social life. But i know you all are out there, and when i think of who i am missing, so many names come to mind, like litlle popcorn in the microwave that keeps popping even after the dinger goes off. Love.
posted by devon @ 8:02 PM
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well, i felt a little funny at first to be commenting on your blog since i am your neighbor and all... but i haven't seen you in sooo long, it feels like forever.. i've gotten all too used to being able to pop over any time i want, or hearing you and the kids playing in the backround of my everyday life, that these past few weeks have been so strange.. what can i say, i love you devon, you inspire me and i'm so glad we live so close to each other, and i dread the day, heaven forbid it ever come, that we should live even one mile apart... hope i don't sound like a psycho there... but i think you know what i mean... i start to go crazy when it's just me all day long and my only conversations are with a daughter who barely knows 10 words, let alone any sentencing structure what so ever... i can't imagine how you survived all that time before we moved in... anyway... it's funy though... we're both so anti-social, we actually don't see each other as much as some may think.. but all that to say, i miss you... love you girl... and i LOVE these pictures...
Ok, so I hope you don't think its weird that I read your blog and comment on it. I have just been thinking about you guys lately and I have tried to call a couple of times but I know your phone has a mind of its own. I end up going to the park at least a couple of times a week and when the pools open up it is the only way to get the kids through the summer heat. So, if you want I can let you know when we are going. You could come or not. I will nerver feel offended. Is there a better way to get ahold of you or just keep trying the phone? I do not want to be pest but I think it is nice to hang out at the park with other moms and kids. I know that I need that little bit of interaction or I can become anti-social and get caught up in my own world. Anyway, this is more like a letter than a comment. I hope you do not think I am to forward. Just a fellow Sacramenten with kids.
Jesse!!! you are very good and i am sooo glad that you want to see me again! But, i won't make this long. I will get scott to find your number in his phone (in redding of course) and we will start to see eachother as much as we can. It will be lovely. I tried looking for a way to write to you at your blog but did'nt know how.
Now, in the words of beloved old e hammond, you have two little popcorn farts.
Hey Devon, I'm so glad you're writing. It's awesome to get to see your thoughts. We've been far away for a long time. But May is coming and that means Whole Earth and that we'll be able to see you! Yay! I can't wait to see that big ol Sam who's almost three which I really can't believe and the beautiful P. And you. I bet you can love summer. It's take it easy weather. Although Sac is pretty hot. I know what you mean about just deciding in your mind to love something. Like I've decided to love driving for an hour and a half to buy groceries! Yay for driving time! Yay for gas prices!
Devon! I've only just now found your blog...but I love it! I feel like we're chatting it up in your living room (which I hung out in just a few weeks ago, sadly, without you). But Rachel's right...Whole Earth Festival is in 2 weeks and I can't wait to see you! That's also my birthday weekend and I always think about the birthday that we hiked Mt. Tam together. I love you and have been thinking about you the past few days...Can't wait to see you and the fam!
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