So i have'nt written til now, but i've been storing up.....

I am sitting here after a good day, and a long day. On the way to church scott says, babe i've done some real thinking on this and i want to marry your cousin. (we've been watching Big Love while we still have cable) and one night last week i had a dream that he was marrying my cous rebekah and that i was going to be there on their honeymoon. But then he said, just kidding, he wanted to say that we ought to have another kid right away........or else!!! But really he meant that if we don't get all our kids out soon, and we wait five years, then we'll be fifty with teens still in the house. then i said, what about adoption. We could fix our fertility permanently then adopt a five year old in five years and we won't have the fifty year old with kids trouble. And we'll still have that semi big family that so many people say is fabulous! So sounds good, and we have'nt decided for sure, but i Do Not want to be all prego for awhile, even possibly for good. And i don't think its selfish, just using some wisdom here. My kids get as much of me as i have. Plus, i've always thought about this one, what about when i want to take these guys to Disneyland? And flights back to MI? I am way blessed with a boy and a girl and i can really see this being enough. Especially with scott saying its either right away or not at all.
Back to the rest of what made today a good un'. Oh my goodness!!! If any of you really knows me you know that i ADORE architecture and all homes of mystery. Homes that i'd walk by a hundred times in the city and just want to see inside, that hold me so much in awe....Today scott and me and the kids went up to the mountains, to Alta, wher Jesse Benkerts dad lives. It was beautiful on the way and then we get there and this house thats scotts putting a bid on is a crazy great victorian, on some exquisite property that i fall instantly in love with. the dog woods all in bloom and the bees just buzzing everywhere in delight. Inside, this house was insane! It was only filled wit hantiques. Hidden nooks and doors and stairs galore! I felt like a little girl! A dream home if there ever was one for me. A wrap around porch, an enclosed porch, the works!!!!! I just am realizing that Jesse is probably going to read this and she has partaken in the wonder of this home and hopefully will comment about its greatness. Also, the whole experience was summed up in what her son Nikkolai had to say about the hopes of having a certain holidCy there. Christmas! He wants to have Christmas at Big Grandpa (PaPa's?) house. The perfect perfect home for a picturesque Christmas. I will absolutely post pictures if scott gets the job and we spend more time up there. there is the off chance that i'll one day be invited to this home for say.......an unnamed Holiday? Just kidding, but it was lovely and i'm sooo rambling. Good day, anyways, just plain nice to be with my fam and all.